Tuesday, July 26, 2011

My Agony..


        I had already got the glimpses of failure though I could see a hope of light somewhere. It was the peek time for deciding my career. But I was left in dilemma. I was waiting for my fate’s statement. Finally it had ended up me with failure. 

        All my companions were stepping to their next phase of life. I was the one who was watching them go as I was not one among them. Though I tried to be happier, I couldn’t. My attempts to overcome my failure had failed from every angle. I had to bow myself in front of my destiny.
         Words didn’t comfort me. Unwillingly I started comparing my fate with others’. Day by day, though time is meant to heal the pain, in my case, it is building up itself. I am a fake in front of others. I am not what I am; I am not what they thought I am. Though I am able to convince others, I am not able to convince myself. I am feeling as though the clouds are covering my sun (confidence). Every time when I try to clear the clouds, it starts raining in my eyes.

         Now a new light has flashed on me. I can move up with others. But is it what I wanted myself to be? Thought its better than before. Am stepping forward unaware of where it will lead me to. But I surely will not able to bear one more failure in future……